"I'm gonna smile, 'cause I deserve it"
Last two weeks was quite terrible for me. Things just didn't work out fine for me or perhaps they just happen the way I don't want them to. Things just won't happen to be what I want instead it always happen the opposite way. I don't believe in fate, I only believe in myself. I remember when I was still a small little girl, when I want something, I know I have to get it no matter what. And true enough, I definitely get everything I want. Maybe that's because my parents dote on me thus now when I'm older and want something, it's a must that I have to get it no matter what. Even if I have to starve or skip some meals I'm willing to do that to get what I want. To be a little more miserable and be contented for just one moment when I get what I want. This time round, I couldn't get what I want, I tried but I can't so I've no choice but to give up. I don't want to make myself suffer over stupid people that don't deserve anything. I'm gonna stay happy from now on because I don't know when god will take my life away....