After today when I saw roschel looked so bliss and filled with happiness to be married to the guy she want to spend her whole life with, I was really happy for her. But somehow I really can't imagine myself in that state. The thought of having to settle down is something I really want but getting married & spending the whole life, see him the first thing I wake up & last thing I sleep, I know I will not be able to commit myself to that. After spending 24/7 with bby for 2 years plus, I know that kinda life of having to see the same person everyday is not the thing for me. Maybe I'm just 19+ that's why I think this way but for now, the thought scares me somehow. I don't think I'm able to take up that commitment for just a A4 paper with two signatures saying we are legally married. That's too much of a commitment. Perhaps I won't think the same in future when I really meet a guy I want to spend my life with. But I doubt that will happen.
January 06, 2011
Bitches
After today when I saw roschel looked so bliss and filled with happiness to be married to the guy she want to spend her whole life with, I was really happy for her. But somehow I really can't imagine myself in that state. The thought of having to settle down is something I really want but getting married & spending the whole life, see him the first thing I wake up & last thing I sleep, I know I will not be able to commit myself to that. After spending 24/7 with bby for 2 years plus, I know that kinda life of having to see the same person everyday is not the thing for me. Maybe I'm just 19+ that's why I think this way but for now, the thought scares me somehow. I don't think I'm able to take up that commitment for just a A4 paper with two signatures saying we are legally married. That's too much of a commitment. Perhaps I won't think the same in future when I really meet a guy I want to spend my life with. But I doubt that will happen.