There's so much I want to say, so much I want to tell. I just feel so ... I don't know how to express it. I'm tired, real tired of everything now. Not that I'm tired of being daughter of my parents. I know I've been ranting over how they treat me like they don't give me my freedom and stuff. But still, they try to give me the best of everything, try to fulfill my every wish. I know sometimes I just got too overboard and ask them for things that's too expensive but, I just want a birthday present which is like 3 more months. Just a birthday present for like after so many years. The last birthday present I remembered was when I was in Primary 2 , a acer computer and up till now nothing at all. My birthday was spent just like some ordinary day nothing special at all from my parents. I thought it will be because I was their only child but no ... However, they buy me things and pay for my everything even if it's before or after my birthday, almost everyday. So I know there's nothing much I can ask from them because they already give me present like everyday in my daily life. When I say I want a new Macbook because I didn't want my vaio, they agreed and bought a new Macbook for me. When I say I want to buy makeup because Sephora just opened, they brought me there and spend $800 over. When I say I want new clothes mum give me the money to buy. When I say I want to go for mani and pedi mum pays for me. When I say I want to go for treatment or a haircut no matter how reluctant mum is she still pays for it. When I say I want a new phone after lass than 6 months of using the LG phone they bought me a Blackberry. When I say I don't want to go China during the holidays, they say ok we'll go Japan. This is how my parents are. They put me first place in their heart and in their eyes. No matter how angry they are or how reluctant they are, they still get me what I want, let me do what I like. Although sometimes they stood in my way, still they still dote on me even if they said they don't want to especially mum. Save up all her money and I spent all. That's my mum always the same. She will nag and nag and nag all the way when we are shopping but still she buys whatever I want with a very black face and next day she forgets all about it.
I love them for being this way.
I love it because I'm their daughter and they are my parents.
I can't deny that I have the best parents in the whole wide world.
Just sometimes they just don't understand me well enough. They don't seems to know me even though I'm their daughter. THey just like to be over protective towards me and controls me alot. But still they are my parents my only parents. They are all I have now. I'm glad they brought me into this world. But this isn't the world I would want to be in. There's too much stress to handle. Too many feelings and emotions for me to handle. I don't think i can handle all of it. I want to leave. I want to get away for here. I want simple and happy life. Not stressful life ... ...
I don't belong here.
I don't ... ... .
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