Alone ... ... .

I hate to be alone. Seriously, being alone just makes things worst. Makes my mind go wild and I don't know what to do to stop. I need bby by my side now so badly that I can't do anything but to lie on my bed staring at the ceiling the whole day. All I feel like doing is to sleep my day through and pray that the time will pass faster so that I can get to see bby sooner. Two weeks is too long for me but I guess I just have to go on with it till 18 to see my dear boy. I didn't know I can miss him so much that it just make me feel weak all over. I don't want to be weak but I wanna be strong. Without bby it seems impossible to be strong at all. And when he's around I become dependent on him. What's wrong with me?!