Again it's 1plus alr and I can't seem to sleep. I need to hear bby's voice so badly. I told him before he go in not to think too much and that I'll be right here waiting for him. Still, I wasn't that strong as I think I could. i'm so dependent on him that the moment I think of him not being there by my side talking to me tears starts flowing down. I need to rest. I want to take a good rest but bby is occupying my mind heart and soul that keeps me awake because he is not here by my side. I feel so weak so useless suddenly. It's just NS and not a break up. But it made me feel worst than ever. ):