I'm dumb to even think of you so often. Your words kinda hurt sometimes, age was never the problem but you make it such a big deal then so be it.
Stayed over at B's house last night. I really like staying over at his house because the last person I see before I close my eyes is him and the first person I see when I open my eyes is him again. But still, staying over at B's house means lying to my parents. Like telling them I'm going over to Pris house instead but actually I'm at B's house. I was even scare they drive over to B's house to check whether I'm there or not since they know where the house is & it's so near my house. ): Still, I enjoyed the time spent with B though most of the time is just seeing him pack his stuff and getting all excited about his trip. I remember hugging him and fell asleep then B tuck me in bed and I started making sounds trying to tell him that I'm not fully asleep but I still fall asleep in the end. B accompanied me to interview at Ngee Ann City then Macs for breakfast & back to my house to put my stuff & back to B's house for lunch, finally cabbed to school. When I got to school was already late for the briefing and I was frustrated about how freaking noise the whole place are and that the lecturers was not able to say what they want to announce. While tearing down booth and bubble wrapping the stuff, I finally broke down and cry when B called me and say he's entering. I was so upset over not able to send him off so Cher and minmin help me with my stuff and ask me to leave first. Saw Joan at the door and we took a cabbed down to the Airport T1. B's mum, sis and him was there waiting for him. Tears were forming in my eyes when I hugged him. How I wish the time will stop there and he don'th have to go for that trip. 'Cause I'm missing him like crazy now and I can't take him off my mind now. When he's in SG all tend to think that he's annoying, he's irritating and stuff but when he's gone, I can't describe the feeling, it's worst than breaking up with him. At least when we break up we still talk on the phone, still meet but this time we can't even talk. Ytd B ask me what am I gonna miss mostly for this one month and I said I will miss the moments when we bicker and the time when he annoyed me & piss me off. Because that's the time when I know and can see how much he loves me.
After Airport took 36 with joan to Cityhall. Then went Actually Actually to see the wedges. Freaking love it and I finally know the size of the wedges in order to buy online. Then met Pris at Robinsons Mac to get her Wonder woman lipstick but it was OOS. B bought it for me yesterday it was still available but no more today. That was freaking fast. So we went to Sephora at Ion and they are launching it on Saturday. End up Pris didn't get her lipstick at Sephora instead I got the new Lady Gaga Viva Glam II nude lipstick and the 3 of us got the Urban Decay Naked Palette. Like finally we got the palette, Joan and I. Since Nov'10 I wanted it and it was always OOS and now, after I gave up wanting it unexpectedly got it when it just arrive. This is really call fate. Met Charlie for awhile and chit chat then he went off with his friends and 3 of us went to DFS to get the Wonder woman lipstick. Actually the lipstick and the lip gloss isn't very nice. But I just want it 'cause it's the limited edition one and I even try the lipstick & gloss on B's lips. LOL. After DFS was dinner at Graffiti Shop. The wanton mee was nice better than some other stalls but still, the Tanjong Rhu one is better. Home Sweet Home after that. On the way home when I was alone, I thought of B even more it's like knowing he's not around and I can't get to hear his voice easily & it's really killing me inside. T.T
I don't know why but yes, I'm tearing now and trying to get through his phone but I can't. I fucking upset and I hate this freaking NS thingy. 2 weeks was really like hell to me and now one month. I seriously hate it. FUCK!
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