SICK again

Sick when the holidays start and now again ): Feel so terrible. Miss my dress making class today. It's the second lesson and I didn't go. Mum forced me to go see doctor because I'm starting school tmr and I don't want to miss the first class so no choice. Got to see doc take medicine, worst of all have to eat the medicine. OMG~ YUCKS!! Lie in bad the whole day and slept my day through. Wasted my sunday which I suppose to go shopping with mum ): Sighs.

I miss you .
Wish that you were by my side .
I love you for a thousand million reasons that cannot be explained .
Because there's no need a reason to love anyone .
MISSES ~

I want SHOPPING~

Want to go shopping so badly. Should be going on Wednesday but I was too tired and lazy. Just went to town for awhile to get my eyeliner and left. Shopping I want I want ... ... .

I miss you the moment I walk away ):
But I won't fall like I told you ... ... .

Sometimes some things seems so difficult to control especially love ... 
Don't want to pretend because it's just too hard to do that ...
Out of so many, why me ?
I wonder ... ... .

Christmas Eve now already.
So tired and I want to sleep .
Hair cut tmr and SHOPPING ~

I MISS YOU~

Met mum and dad at Chinatown at 12pm. Went to sign up for dress making class at smith street. Guess that's my interest since young no matter what I want to learn it. First lesson starting on Saturday. Want to get a portable sewing machine so that I can sew at home anyone would like to sponsor that??

Lunched then off to Hong Thai Travel. Leaving Singapore on 15Feb2010 to Japan - Okinawa. I wanted Hokkaido but mum said it's too cold later I cannot take it. ): As long as it's Japan and not China I'm fine. Coming back on 19Feb2010 which means I'm miss 3 lessons for VMP1. I just don't want to stay in Singapore during CNY without my parents. It just feel so weird without them because I've been traveling overseas since 3 year old during CNY with them. So I just want it to always be the same.

Cabbed to cdc meet hong kiap then to town. Wanted to buy the Party time bra but the material sucks. Then astons with hk and movie "The Frog and the Princess" Rochor beancurd and home sweet home. My left thigh was giving me a lot of problem the whole day. Hurts so badly and I don't know why. I can't even walk properly especially up and down the stairs. ): Hope it will be better tmr and don't hurt anymore on thurs.

Zirca with Pris and co on Xmas eve without joan dear.
Maybe it will be a little different without her. No one to dance with ... ... .
I miss JOAN ~!!!

Lucky she'll be back on 27 which means we'll be celebrating New Year together (:
There's so much things I want on my wishlist.
1. A portable sewing machine (brother)
2. A instant mini 7 (mickey mouse edition)
3. Benefit cosmetics
4. Bvlgari perfume
5. Prada Wallet
6. Swaroski Ring
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So many things how to list down everything. Haas.
Now all I want is alot of CLOTHES.
Shopping tomorrow.
YAYS. Finally get to see you.
I miss you (:


Pris bday BBQ Me, Andrew and Pris. Andrew is a cute and sweet boy (:

Abby. Cute little toddler


I know I cannot fall again, I will not fall again. I will not allow that to happen. Found this song by Ne-Yo "Don't fall in love" Baby please don’t fall in love Baby I’m no good for you All I’m gonna do is hurt you Baby please don’t fall in love Don’t fall in love Girl I’m not the one No emotions babe.. we just having fun All I’m gonna do is hurt you Don’t fall in love with me baby, don’t fall in love Don’t fall in love with me.. cause all I’m gonna do is break your heart ~ Perhaps this is what you want to say and want me to understand. Yes I do (: Not allowing myself to fall or get hurt again ... ... .

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went to school for portfolio review today.

after the review, hubby and I went to heeren to have lunch.

Had lunch at Waraku because I had carvings for sushi almost everyday.

After lunch, we went to lido for movie. "Surrogates"

Movie, shopping for present for my dearest dad.

Dinner and home sweet home.

Went home and talk to daddy.

Both mum and dad want to change their phone.

Me too ~

Hope I can.

Working tmr at suntec :DD

Miss hubby alot alot.

Hubby I love you.

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Went Top1 to sing with hubby on Tues.

It was so long since we last went for singing session.

After singing we went to chinatown to have dessert.

Hubby and I had conflicts but everything was fine at night when I'm home.

Today hubby accompanied me to work.

He was with his friends the whole day.

I can see from hubby's expression that he is really happy.

There were misunderstanding between he and his friends but everything is fine now.

:DDD

Hubby,

don't care about those idiots that talk behind your back,

and who are trying to sow discord you and your friends.

After all foxes will always show their tails after some time.

People get to see their true self and leave them.

Let them say till their mouth bleed and lost their voice.

That's the best cos when they need help, no one will help.

Because no one can hear. Because they can't talk anymore.

HAHAHAHA :DDDD

Okay, I feel so bad to say all these la.

But if that really happens, they deserve it.

Same to those who like to talk bad about others.

Listing out the facts are fine, but spouting nonsense that aren't true,

wait till you get your retribution, people will be laughing at you.

No one is perfect, you can't stop idiots from spouting nonsense.

They just feel insecure that's why they need to break up friends ,

in order to keep them to themselves.

This is call selfish, childish and insignificant idiots who should not exist in this world.

Selfish people will turn out lonely in the end.

Guess I should have an advance celebration for you guys to get your retribution.

*CLAPS*

Hubby,

I love you a lot a lot.

We've been quarreling but our love get stronger after each quarrel.

I want to see you badly after each good morning.

I miss you even more after each goodbye.

I wish to see you in my dreams after each good night.

>I MISS YOU

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It's about don't know how many donkey weeks never blog already.

For the past few weeks, caught a few movies,

went for Chanel eye wear party with Joan and hubby.

Went cycling, manicure and pedicure, Sentosa and shopping ~!!

Nothing much to talk about actually.

Still the same routine just that, hubby is included in my daily routine.

HAAS~

Went Vivo with mum and dad on Saturday and had dinner at Tung Lok.

OMG~ That was my second time there.

I remember the first time was with my-used-to-be best friend and her current boyf.

Which was not her boyf at that time, like almost more than a year ago.

Photos will be the better speaker. :DD

Going for Chanel eye wear party at Paragon.

Jerline and me

At Shangri-la Hotel, The Line for company dinner.

Adeline.

Only manage to take photos with the two with my phone.

After movie but forget what show.

Cycling at ECP

After cycling and dinner.

I look through all the photos this is the only one which four of us took tgt.

Joan and my nail art (:

Totally love mine. I did it on my nails too.

Hubby too got buried :DD

Burying HoeKhim in the sand

Hubby and me

- it's me without makeup. HAAS

Sentosa

>I don't know what's the fucking problem with my parents.

If they are not happy with me then so be it.

Stop controlling my life, THIS IS MY LIFE not fucking yours.

So let me live my own life.

>I'm FREAKING STRESS NOW

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Everything are like are packed up together.

I can't breathe, fucking stress.

I thought I can cope with it but seriously I can't.

I want to get out of this stupid stressful world.

I just don't feel like going to school ANYMORE ~

But I have to because of my parents.

They put in so much effort in me, no matter how tired they are,

they still work to provide me with whatever I want in the future.

I know, I understand, that's why I'm still hanging on.

Just because of them.

They love me and care of me , I too.

I don't want to be disappointed if I tell them I want to stop studying.

I don't think I can stand another moment of seeing their disappointed face.

It's been months when I see them in disappointment.

It hurts me badly , so I don't want that to happen.

NEVER ~!!!

I keep telling myself I have to hang on.

I've to do better, I've to get good grades.

But no matter how hard I tried it's like it isn't enough at all.

It's like it's never gonna be enough no matter how much effort I've put in.

There will always someone that can do better and really much more better.

Every time when I see that, I fucking feel like killing myself.

I hold back my tears every single time but this time I can't .

It's the last two blocks for Year2 sem1 but I still fucking hell stress.

I seriously never ever thought that I can't cope with the stress in school.

But the fact proves that, I can't. And really can't

I've never felt so stress in my whole life before not even for O' levels.

I just hate the feeling, I just wish to kill myself and end of everything.

I don't have to do work, don't have to submit assignments, don't have to present.

Don't have to see my parents and those who care for me in disappointment.

I don't have to care how others feel because I'm not around anymore.

I just want to run away, as far as I can.

From everything that I'm unable to cope, the stress, the work, the projects.

Even if I don't kill myself, all these are killing me already.

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Schooled .

Sewing and off to T3 for Popeyes.

Went with Joan, HoeKim and hubby.

Dinner, then TCC for dessert.

Had Oreo Mocha Frappe and Strawberry Romantasia.

My all time favourite (:

Slacked awhile and took Skytrain to T2 and trained home.

Going to register for license.

My uncle is gonna teach hubby, Joan and me.

Yays. It's like finally I'm going to register.

Zoo on Sat with Joan , HK and Hubby.

Haircut and manicure tomorrow, perhaps.

:DDD

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HAPPY 19th MONTH ANNIVERSARY HUBBY~

I't 12am already which means it's 12 Aug 09.

It's been 19 months since we first get together.

It may seems to be long but to me,

the time pass so fast when you are right beside me.

Sometimes, most of the time I should say,

I which that time will just stop at the moment we are together we no one by our side.

Just the two of us.

Because it's enough to have you and YOU ONLY~

I love you baby noel.

Now till forever, till death pull us apart .

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